i was actually not into the mood writing some personal thingy went through past few days ruining my holiday, not telling that to anyone too, but one for sure, i have decided not to think it anymore as someone told me that i have some other concerns those are more important in my life. yeah, eventough the idea of giving up could come around me any time. i know this is kind of cruel and it is accepted if i am being so mad and so rusty and feeling so deadlocked after all those times. but thank god i have a good anger management and hope i could erase this remembrance soon, a very soon. once said that life is rude but never been too rude for strong people. and sometime yes, “you won’t know how strong you truly are until being strong is the only choice you’ve got”. i am unofficially chosen to be a part of the group of strong people since i was born. ain’t i? cause i take it not only as my destiny but also as my life choice. a good friend told me that we live as a single creature, we died taking responsibility for what we did when we are alive. we don’t take any responsibility for others: for our lover, our closest friends, for our neighbors, or even our family.

i admit that i’ve done bad stuff and lot of mistakes, so maybe i deserved this punishment. i have to reshape my mindset on seeing and handling either the little difficulties or the big ones. subsequently, i guess i have to be grateful for everything happened in my life because i always find the good part of it. there was rain and lightning before rainbow comes. somehow, i am alive for a reason and therefore, no matter how hard things get, i won’t ever give up on my life.

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cheers,

reac.